can i just say, i had many lovely things happen in the last 24 hours

- BEN FREAKIN FOLDS

first and foremost. new album. ah!

- meredith and i just met chase daniel. we are filming him tomorrow at 5:30. our video skit will be complete. finally.

- i had a class canceled, and both of my other two classes were basically worthless. so i was done with class at 10:30

-i got 2 lunches for the price of one and laughed A LOT at lunch. more than i have ever laughed.

- i got my hurr did. i have bangs. real bangs. this is my emo statement to the world. and now my hair is soft and smells delightful. and i got new shampoo. it smells like mint!

-i went to my grandpa's house and did not cry.  it's the little victories, right?

- check this out. part one

i dare you not to cry. part two.

the last part.

 

yeah boy. that was in the newspaper. 

i mean, look at the joy on her face.

the articles and the pictures are PHENOMINAL. way to go julia!

- i finished a paper. i still have many to go.

- i get to sleep in tomorrow.

-i spent time with basically all of my favorite people today. minus a few.

- i have a night to myself. for the first time in ever.

- i have the most darling, precious, beautiful, wonderful, perfect young life girls in the whole entire world. 

-i have the most great monday night bible study ever. vag. for life.

- i have seen the lord's faithfulness for the first time in 3 months.

 "though the fig tree does not bud, and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop falls and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, lest i will rejoice in the LORD.  I will be joyful in God my savior.  The soverign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights" -habakkuk 3:17-19

im learning to take life one day at a time.

(also, check this out. she just put it up. its an audio slide show. its AMAZING!!!)

my calling in life.

i think i've missed my calling in life.

a runway model.

(GAHH!! that DRESS! oscar de la renta!)

i could walk around in fabulous garb every fashion week.

and look angry.

easy, right?

i would only have to lose like, 40 pounds. and grow like, 5 inches.

and get lots of plastic surgery.

do-able, right? ha!!

then i could be friends with him.

or i could be like MIA, in the spring 2008 ad.

oh me oh my.

riddle me this.

riddle me this.
why have i just now found out about a fine frenzy.




omg.
if she was a man, i would marry her.
i feel like she is singing the songs of my heart.
oh goodness me!

what an exciting development!

little lights.

watch this lovely documentary.



i have funny friends. they are my little lights.




and a most beautiful little girl that has returned to brightened up my days again.



it's the little things that are getting me through.
keep being my friend, please. ill be better eventually. not so grumpy.
im just hurting. i didn't know i could love this much. it seems to makes things hurt more than i thought they could. every section of my life seems to be falling apart.
ill be back soon enough. hopefully sooner rather than later.

-mary kate

wink.

its weird for me to look at my last post, and see where things are now.
for those of you that don't know, my grandpa died on tuesday of last week, the 22nd.
i cant look that last post without feeling like i'm going to throw up.
he was one of the most important people in my whole world.
he loved me in a way that reflects how Jesus loves me.

i have never experienced loss this deep. i've never hurt this badly. it is a constant pain. and i know it cannot be relieved. i didn't know i could hurt this much.
there is nothing in the entire world i can do to fix this.
i am just so deeply sad. and i feel like no one understands. except for my mom and brothers.

i dont really want to write about it. that makes it too real. and that is too hard.
i probably won't want to talk about it either.
i just felt i was due for an update.
i also had a birthday. thanks for all the phone calls and text messages and emails.
i probably didn't return them. if i did, you are one of the lucky ones.

its amazing how many people have rallied around me in this time. i have gotten so much support from all of my friends. people have been so great. so thanks for that.

i dont have anything insightful to put up.
i wish i had something positive. but im still hurting a lot. the tears wont seem to stop.
i find very bad ways of numbing myself. i just dont really know how to respond.
i havent been grieving the way i thought i would.
i don't talk about it. but i think that's okay. i dont really know though.

looking at pictures doesn't hurt, at this moment. because this can't really be happening in my head. i could just drive over to his house and he will be sitting in his chair in his bedroom or out on the porch.
he's not supposed to leave me. he's supposed to be here. to take care of me and tell me how much he loves me.

i know i'll be ok in time. because he is with Jesus. that is way better. i just miss him.
he's not in pain. it was quick. he knew we loved him.
i just don't know columbia without him. he can't really be gone.
it just doesn't seem right.
my little world has been shattered. it's interesting to see how things have been put in perspective. i know people always say that, but it has really shown me a lot. things just don't seem that important anymore.

im just not ready to let go.

miss you papa.

say yes! to m!ch!gan

i took a little family vacay to the great state of michigan.
i will now show you all about my trip.


i would like to start by showing off my brother's awesome bike hair.



finger painting.








"If the lakes took
The place of the sea
If the cars drove themselves
Way to be!
Opposite the trains moving in
Rivers run interstate, Michigan!"












(I wish i could make this bigger. but then it won't fit.)











i put up with a lot of shenangians.
i got a huge bruise on my arm. thanks to samantha.
that is my fabulous trip in a photographic nutshell.
-mk

beast?

here i am. in michigan. today i decided, "I think i'll go for a little bike ride"

no. it was not little.

i rode 16 mo freakin miles around the lake.
up a hill that was probably over a mile long.
and i am alive to tell you all about it.
i nearly died, but i did not perish.

i made it. (thanks to stronger, by britney spears. that came on just at the right moment. at the end of the monster hill)

i have limited internet access, but i felt this post was necessary.

i biked around this mofo.





i pretty much can do anything now. bring it on world. i will dominate you
more to come later. ill be back in como sunday night. let's hang.



love, a very tan/buff version of the mary loring you once knew.

oh ohhhhhhhhhhhh!

so, today was the last day of my class. my 4 week class. it's over....! horray!
which also means (my) summer is basically all over the place from now on. i've been in columbia all of june.
friday i go home, saturday i go to michigan! my favorite place in the whole world. then im back for a week, then i go to k(ids) a(cross) a(merica). then i'm back for another 5 days, then i go to young life camp.

so anyways.
i was doing a little searching today.
and i found this.





i think it's amazing. look at minute 3:31
heart wrenching. i feel like they are really in love.
some day, some man will woo me like chris brown.
i love chris brown.
this video is in honor of biz.

okay. see you all in a week and a half.

-mk

daughters of the soho riots

gahhhhhh!!!!!!

why i love comet with bleach.

okay. so i've been thinking a lot lately.

public restrooms: one of the many reasons it pays to be a dude.



let's critically think about this.
GROSS!
for girls, we have to sit where someone else just sat. and everybody knows where you are going. it's like, i'm going pee. and if we think about the act of peeing, it is not necessarily an open and appropriate thing.
and its a freaking public restroom. Ew!



toilets at homes are not as bad. but at boys houses, sometimes it's pretty gross. i have had many a conversation about this. a friend recently said, "i mean, i hate going to the bathroom there!! i'm afraid someone is going to walk in or something!"

as children, we are potty trained.
it is generally an exciting time.




i mean, these kids look so happy. the last one looks a little scared, but still cute.

however. when i was a child (sweet hair, huh?) i refused to use public restrooms.



this probably doesn't surprise most of you, but i had my own "special potty"

it looked something like that, except it was pink. when we would go on trips, i would use that potty. i would not use public restrooms. i would only use my pink potty. my mom would set it somewhere in the front of the mini-van and i would just go there. then my mom would take care of things after that.
this may explain more about me. why i am the way i am =)
ha! and i am still repulsed by public restrooms. i cringe even thinking about them.


some interesting public restrooms:





my personal favorite.
scared asian child.

there is a restroom in houston, texas. you cannot see in it, but they can see out at you.



amazing??!
i think so.


--mary kate

you said i must eat so many lemons, cause i am so bitter

(i said i'd rather be with your friends, mate, cause they are much fitter)

accents + people + singing.
equals = my favorite thing EVER.

kate nash: merry happy. nicest thing. mouthwash

lily allen: littlest things. alfie.


charlene soraia (a new discovery, thank you emily lewis): daffodils. kissing gate. i don't believe you.

kings of convenience: I'd rather dance with you. homesick. cayman islands

missy higgins: peachy. 100 round the bends.



teeheeee

jose gonzalez: heartbeats. lovestain.


regina spektor: samson. the call. summer in the city.



broken social scene: time=cause. anthems for a seventeen year old girl. shampoo suicide. pitter patter goes my heart.


feist: secret heart. the park. honey honey. how my heart behaves


new pornographers: all the old showstoppers. twin cinema. the bleeding heart show. the jessica numbers. these are the fables


yael naim: new soul. too long. toxic.



the knife: heartbeats (if you have never heard this song. listen to it NOW!). silent shout

(creepy picture)


basically not from here.
i love you.
please sing to me.

don't they just look way cooler?
i think so.

--mary kate katherine.